Monday, December 7, 2015

Book Report: Oddly Normal

1. Your points of disruption--places in the book that cause you to feel uncomfortable or angry or curious.

A major point of disruption that made me rather angry was when I realized that the author and his wife still has some pretty inaccurate ideas of what it means to be gay or what being gay consists of. Joe’s passion for “prettiful” toys and Barbie dolls shouldn’t be an indicator that he is gay. It only reinforces incorrect gender stereotypes and even gender roles (that only girls should care about dolls, which is a reflection of the expectation that only women should care for children or are good with them). As the reading ‘Dude, You’re a Fag’: Adolescent Masculinity and the Fag Discourse relates, even though being called a ‘fag may have nothing to do with homosexuality, it still indicates that if males were to desire or do anything traditionally or stereotypically “female” (e.g. playing with dolls, or being terrible at a sport), that means you were ‘weaker’ or ‘incompetent’ because females are seen that way in society. Therefore stereotypes about sexuality reinforce inaccurate and harmful stereotypes about gender as well. 

Another point of disruption came from the line, “Gay kids can carry around an internal bully that makes them feel miserable whether or not someone is picking on them personally.” A lot of gay kids often already grow up in a society, environment, or culture that not only ‘wires’ them to be straight but guilts them for not being that way; it conditions them that that is the way they should be so when there is something which is at conflict with how you’ve been wired your whole life, it creates a lot of self-loathing and mental distress especially when it is related to what one is taught to believe as ‘morals’. 


2. How the stories from the book will influence your thinking about your future work as a teacher.

I fear that I may underestimate the still current presence and effects of bullying even after all that anti-bully campaigning. I know that it is still present but as a teacher of possible large-size classes, I realize I might not be able to observe as deeply, and as quickly enough the subtleties of possible ongoing bullying that could lead to drastic consequences. Therefore what I can do is to constantly emphasize kindness. Instead of telling students what to not do, it is better to teach them what to do. I can also make time to have one on one check-in sessions with my students throughout the semesters. I would also like to create and maintain an environment where my students feel like they can come talk to me anytime they want. I think this will be greatly reflected in the way I carry and express myself in my classroom. How I speak and what I say will speak more volumes than anything I could teach them.

“You don’t have to be gay to understand that your own child might feel isolated, different. Alone on the planet.” We cannot and will not have experienced many of the things that our students have experienced, but that doesn’t mean we cannot empathize with them. We all have had different experiences that produce similar feelings, so when we need to, we can tap into those experiences to better empathize with what a student might be struggling with.


3. Descriptions of the stories from the book clarify or provide examples of the ideas we have been discussing in class.

While the Schwartzes were affirming parents, they could not protect their child from the merciless school environment. Joe was initially confident after coming out. One time in the school yard he observed some boys ranking girls. He chided them for doing so and went on to rank them, which made them feel inadequate even though that was the very thing they were doing themselves to girls. Joe then added, “Are you afraid of the big gay man?”. Afterwards, the story spread and Joe attempted suicide later. 

The bullying reminds me of the reading about the case concerning Aaron Fricke versus his principal Richard B. Lynch. While the principal seemed like a well-intentioned man and wanted to protect the students from harm, and therefore felt it was ‘safer’ for the Aaron not to attend the prom with someone of the same gender. This is because a fundamental problem with bullying, discrimination, and bigotry is victim blaming. It sends a message to bigots and bullies that they can keep doing what they are doing while other should live in ‘silence’ for the sake of their ‘safety’. Were the kids in Oddly Normal disciplined for their actions? At the end of the day, parents and teachers alike, instead of telling victims that they shouldn’t have done this or that, why don’t they teach kids instead to be kind towards each other? 

Later on, Joe dyed his hair purple. His father was concerned about how that would attract even more unwarranted attention. Fortunately, when he enters high school, we see a future more tolerant. When a jock confronts him and says, “But don’t you understand — don’t you understand — that the color purple has been appropriated by the homosexuals?”, another jock comes up and tells the first jock, “He can dye his hair hot . . . pink if he wants to.” Therefore, as reiterated from above, if we ensure environments where students are empowered to be good people - to stand up for each other and to stand up for what’s right, our young people can then focus on the important things instead of worrying about living authentic lives and being themselves. Society is made up of people who are they way they are because of the way they were raised and taught. Therefore, when we shape the individual young lives now, we are shaping the future of our societies. 

(Re)Imagined Class

1. Five images (you can take them or they can come from the Internet [provide proper credit]). These images should reflect, in some way, what you imagine your classroom will look like once you are a teacher. Please annotate your images by providing a description of the image and how it relates to your future classroom.

Picture 1: Classroom has many windows. Each student has a computer so they can easily see and refer to what the teaching is saying. Because I will be teaching film, having a computer for each of my students is pertinent for relevant post-production work. Additionally, given the more costly nature of a film-production curriculum, I am aware of socio-economic differences amongst my students with some students more affluent than others and some less well-off. Therefore, depending on the school district and resources made available to me, I will have to carefully plan the numbers of my class intake as well (which may have to be a smaller class size as a result). This allows the students who do get admitted to have a more level-playing field owing to sufficient resources provided to them equally. The desk will also be kept big enough for them to write notes for any thoughts and ideas they might have during instruction.




Picture 2:  There is sufficient space in between the grouped tables and chairs for the teacher to walk around and work with the students freely. The grouped spaces allow students to also collaborate with ease. Because of my increased awareness of special needs students, I also want to ensure sufficient space in between desks for wheelchair-bound students, or students who have some kind of an impaired movement. I will always require my student to rotate their seatings every two weeks so they learn to collaborate and build relationships with different kinds of people from different backgrounds. I think this is one of the best ways for young people to learn empathy for and from each other.



Picture 3: In my culture, we were always seated in a very traditional classroom layout. The teacher stood at the front of a huge class with columns and rows of students facing her. This resulted in a few problems. Not every student could always see the teacher while students seated in the back and corners were easily more prone to distractions or they felt isolated or neglected. Additionally, this contributed to bullying because the teacher could not always see what was going on. In my younger experience, I became anxious about being seated (facing forward) in front of certain students who were seated behind me because I did not know what they might to do me when the teacher wasn't looking. Therefore I definitely do not want a classroom layout where it is easy for students to target other students. I do not want any of my students feeling like they have to keep looking over their shoulder (literally). I am more aware now I may receive students who may come from difficult family and home situations, or other factors that already contribute to emotional anxiety. Thus I want to create a safe, open, and friendly space in my classroom through a careful seating layout where I will always be able to easily see everyone, whether it be grouped seatings like the one above or a U-shaped layout like the one below. A small teacher to student ratio will better enable me to know each of my students more personally and allow me to reach out to each of them.




Picture 4: I love the image of the globe on the floor. The open space and chalk boards creates a welcoming place for young energetic students to walk about freely to discuss ideas. This space would be used as a discussion haven. Many young students think with more clarity when they are able to move about. I also want to use this open space for class presentations. In particular, I would like to set aside time during the even weeks to let ESL students talk about a current film or one that everyone is familiar with but in their native or first language. Sharing something current or familiar allows students to make connections more easily with the content while also learning more about the native languages of their ESL peers. I will the set aside time in during the odd weeks for international or immigrant students to share something about their culture and a film made in their native homeland.




Picture 5: I would love to have an outdoor section of my classroom where students can also just go outside on good-weathered days to continue learning. The fresh air from the outdoors can also help students to focus better because very often young people just want to be outside moving around and not just stuck indoors for long periods of time - particularly with students with ADHD and other learning needs. Obviously I may not have the resources as pictured below, but adapting to the simplicity of nature such as just find whatever they can to sit on and leaving personal belonging (safely) behind in the classroom can help students feel a little less of the different socio-economic differences between them. 





2. Imagine the surrounding in your classroom. What does the room look like? What resources are available for students? How are the resources used during the lesson?

Besides computers and film equipment, the walls of my classroom is filled with (as many as I can acquire) films and huge movie posters from different countries and cultures across the world - not just American ones. There will also be films and movie posters of different film genres as well such as documentary and avant garde films. I want my students to not only become well-versed in the production of film, and film history, but to also become cultured learners and informed about global cultures.

I also want to research and feature in my classroom stories and movies of successful filmmakers who came from humble beginnings, or were oppressed by society one way or another. I want my students of lower socio-economic status, minority, immigrant, ESL, and special needs to believe that they can also make it. 


3. Describe the students in your classroom. What are their backgrounds? What are their interests? What are they doing during the lesson?

The students in my class are happy and enthusiastic, but also focused on their task at hand because they enjoy learning about film and telling stories that matter to them. They are learning how to work with each other and collaborate constructively. They are learning unique things from each other's background.

They come from a diverse combination of race, language, religion, economic status, family backgrounds and cultural traditions. They are interested in having a voice. They understand that there are important issues out there need to be heard and they know that film is one of the most powerful ways to do it. And film today has become so democratized!


4. Describe your classroom policies. What are you classroom rules? What is your discipline plan? What are your homework policies?

On the first day of class, we will discuss what it means to be respectful. I want to have this discussion because I realize that we all come from different cultures and upbringing that have conditioned us in different ways. So before I can even teach respect, we need to define it as a class so that we are all on the same page while also learning from each other. In my culture, respect meant never questioning authority, or the teacher. In Western culture, at least in my experience thus far, part of respecting the teacher is respectfully raising concerns and engaging in constructive conversation because you recognize that the teacher too is a person who is also still learning and growing, and you often respect them even more when they recognize to their own learning experiences.

Students will respectfully raise concerns and questions with their teacher and their peers. 

Students will give constructive criticism when they participate and contribute to class discussions.

Students will gather and return materials to the right places, and clean up after themselves. This encourages responsibility and helps them to develop good citizenship both within and outside the classroom.

Students will be focused when in the classroom, and show sincere effort in completing their work.

Students will be punctual to class. When they are late more than three times, I will approach them to find out why because I want to know if I may be able to help them in some way, or if they have a family situation I need to be aware of. 

I will also let students know they can come talk to me during my office hours, or schedule a time outside of it if needed. Before our conversations, I will remind them about my boundaries and duties and a teacher; I am not bound by confidentiality as a counselor is. Letting them know will allow them to decide carefully what they do or do not want to tell you, as well as help maintain a professional student-teacher relationship. 

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If a student is late more than three times with no valid reason, he/she will stay after school for 15 minutes to help the teacher clean and organize the classroom. Ten minutes will be added to each additional tardiness.

Verbal warnings will first be given for excessive talking or disrupting the class. After three times, a student’s seat will be changed, followed by a timeout in the classroom, and then in an alternate classroom.

The first time bullying is detected, I will approach the possible to ask him how he is doing. I will also find out if he is aware that he is coming across that way. I want these students to know that I care about them too. I realize that given different backgrounds, students may use language that they do not realize is hurtful to other students or reflects more problematic perspectives (such as saying "That's so gay." without meaning to be mean).  

However, if it happens again, a visit to the Principle’s office and possible contact with the student’s parents will result. I want to reinforce a non-tolerance policy for any form of bullying.

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Homework can be turned in late but at a 50% deduction penalty for everything up till a week before the last day of class. Homework can also be redone for a single letter upgrade. At the same time, if a student is constantly struggling to turn homework in, I will approach the student to find out why (e.g. family situation, adjusting to new school/life/country, bullying, emotional stress, gender/sexuality struggles, etc.), and recommend school counselors if appropriate to do so. 

For ESL learners, I will offer extra credit to their peers as a option for them to set aside time to help these classmates. I will also stay back to help these students if needed. Depending on the seriousness of the situation and how many ESL students I have, I may also approach the school board to provide after-school tutors if the school doesn't have any.


5. Describe a typical lesson you will teach in your classroom. What will you teach? What is the topic? Why did you choose this topic? How will you teach it? What is the main thing you want students to learn during this lesson?

A typical first lesson as part of my film curriculum is to teach media literacy. The topic is how can students learn to personally critically examine information presented by different forms of media. I chose this topic because one of the major implications of the lack of media literacy is that students end up taking things at face value because it’s the easiest, and therefore end up developing an inaccurate ideas of life and the people and things in it. As educators, we cannot simply only be concerned with media that we have selected for quality or educational value but look for ways to engage critical thinking around students' everyday media uses. Truly these days, corporations are getting better than ever at packaging a false sense of reality and selling it to the masses, and it is the unknowing and uninformed consumers who eat it up the fastest. This ranges from fashion, food, products to unhealthy ideas about ourselves and about others. Therefore, media literacy is important so that our students do not become passive consumers, but instead active, critical thinkers who will know how to question what is presented to them. Further, this will also inevitably affect what they put out there.

As part of teaching media literacy, I will like my students to first pick an area that they think the media misrepresents. Some areas of life I would suggest is race, gender, body image, sexuality, food, consumer goods, vacations, etc, but students can come up with their own as well so long as they run it by me after. They will then write down what are their current perspectives are on these topics. After which they will do their own research on computers. Part of the research is to find images that the media uses versus images taken by lay people on the internet and compare them side by side in a presentation to the class, and discuss the implications of such misrepresentations. They will then write down new perspectives gained and what surprised them. I will also give immigrant students a chance to share how media is produced and consumed in their home countries so that the class can learn about the different ways other cultures approach similar issues in their media. This allows for global learning and only adds to the richness of perspectives.

The main thing I want my students to learn during this lesson is to realize that media and film are very powerful tools that can be use for good, or otherwise. And that is why I want them to learn media literacy first before I teach them film production skills. When students are able to think carefully about the ‘whys’ and ‘hows’ of what they want to create, it only adds meaning, value, and quality to their work.


6. Imagine your work as a teacher during this lesson. What are you doing during the lesson?

I am speaking loudly, and clearly enough. I have divided the class into smaller groups of 4-5 students for initial class discussions. I do so because I recognize that for some (or many) students, it is less scary/more comfortable for them to talk and share their ideas and perspectives amongst fewer people (because it probably also means less judgement).

I use constructive language and give useful, specific feedback for the students' working ideas. I have also asked a few advanced students for permission and paired them with their peers who have learning difficulties or special needs so they can assist them in the assigned tasks.

While discussions are going, I am walking around my classroom constantly engaged with the different groups of students. Again, ESL or shy students may typically be not as keen to speak. Therefore, walking around allows me to note these things and subtly encourage or assist participation if I feel the student is up to it (or up for it). Walking around allows me to monitor the overall ongoings of my classroom and to ensure that students are doing as they should, and if they are not, I will then know to find ways to help them.

7. Imagine your students again, what are they doing during the lesson?

My students are having open and honest conversations about their personal views. They are learning from each other how misrepresentations in the media have shaped and influenced their own experiences. They are now talking about what they can do to be more critical about these misrepresentation and how they can contribute to more accurate representations in the media about things they care about.

Students are coming to me with questions. They are working on their research. They are engaged and interested. They are learning. They are sharing. They are smiling. 


8. Imagine how you will assess your students' learning and achievement. How will you know they have learned?

I think one of the best ways is to have students talk about the work they have done - that way you can gain a pretty good idea about how invested they were in it. I would like them to talk about what they loved, what worked for them, and what they did not like about the assignment. 

Another way is for students to present their findings to the class. At the same time, I will also require a short write up about things learned. This way, those who are good at speaking and those who are more comfortable writing will have a fair chance for me to assess their learning and achievement.



Reflective piece

I made the changes I did to further expound on the reasons for the classroom I had originally imagined. This time I drew a lot more connections to the topics we learned this semester and incorporated them into decisions I made, so my decisions felt even more purposeful, particularly in regards to the physical environment. In the process, I also mention how things from my culture have shaped the way I desire for my students to both learn and not learn. I learned that respect is defined differently in different cultures.

I also redid the entire lesson part because I felt it was imperative for my students to first confront their relationship with the media and better understand how they were being affected by it. I also reworked it to ensure the participation of other minorities in the classroom so they felt included.


At the end of the day, even though my students will be learning the art of filmmaking, ultimately what I hope for them to learn - is about life itself and good citizenship. 


Monday, November 30, 2015

Community Experience

For this assignment I attended a few Alcohol Anonymous meetings. I must say that I was pretty nervous because I went alone. I also thought it was interesting how nervous I was because I wasn’t even an alcohol addict or “one of them”. It actually made me wonder if new allies are nervous showing up at LGBT meetings. I will share some of the stories that really touched me and gave me new insights. 

Person A share how this was his first 60 days out of incarceration and not being at a treatment center, but perhaps what meant most to him was that he was actually not trashed (wasted) when his young son came home from school and needed help with homework. And he was proud of himself that he was finally in a state to be a better dad.

Person B shared how his sister’s twins were scared of him and cried whenever he used to be around, but ever since he started sobering up, they cried because they didn’t want him to leave. He also shared how he actually didn’t actually want to share anything because he felt inadequate for his fear of relapsing so he felt that whatever he shared may no longer be valid in the next little while. However, his sponsor told him that it was important that he share whatever little successes he did have because recovery is not a one time thing, but a process. Now he even looks forward to meetings. 

Person C shared that one of the hardest things is personal belief - believing that you can actually get sober and stay sober. If you don’t have this belief, you are essentially striving towards ‘nothing’, which would makes overcoming addiction impossible.

Person D shared that he started drinking because it removed the pain of isolation and loneliness and feeling like he didn’t fit in. Drinking actually also didn’t start so badly, but eventually it became a very powerful tool and destroyed his life. He thought he needed it to connect with the world. Now, he connects to a power greater than him instead, a power he calls God and he finds himself spiritually, physically, and emotionally connected. Today, he wakes up with hope, and without terror, remorse, fear, or guilt. 

Person E shared that this is the first holiday season that she has felt happy in a long time. She too felt like an outsider for a long time, which is the reason why she started drinking in the first place. But ever since she started accepting herself, it has helped her overcome those feelings of being an outsider. She knew she needed to do the work, and believe in herself. She also believes in a higher power, and started believing in Him because she saw Him work in other people’s lives. 

Person F shared that a year ago she was in a treatment center and did not imagine she would get here. She also shared that when you don’t want to go to a meeting, that’s probably the best time to go. Perhaps what scared her the most about finally being out of treatment was being ‘ready’ to go back to work and regular life, and it sacred her so much. She also believes in the work of a higher power. She added that often when you don’t feel like sharing something at a meeting, you probably should anyway because you never know if someone could use something you say. This has happened to her. Another time, she felt like she was going to go into a drinking relapse after a really long hard day, but then she saw another person’s AA sticker on their car and felt solidarity. She decided not to drink. Now she has the sticker on her car to pass it along because it represents honesty and openness, and it can help someone’s life when they see the sign of a fellow AA person. 

Person G shared that something that really keeps her going is practicing her gratitude. She also wants to spend the holidays with her daughter because she has not been able to do so for a long time now given her addiction. She comes to these meetings to be surrounded by people who understand her and share her pain and struggle. She is grateful to people who choose to come out to these meetings or events instead of only staying in with their own families and loved ones.

Person H shared that he realized when he is sober while on his job at a drug treatment center, he is not only as normal as anyone can be, but also able to relate to patients on a very deep level that he couldn’t otherwise have been able to do if he were drunk. It allows him to better connect and empathize with people.

Person I shared that she has been in treatment for seven and half months. When she was drinking, she just felt numb. She hates feeling emotions and feeling vulnerable. Therefore she always sought out instant gratification which often came in the form of alcohol. While she resents herself for not having gone as far as she hoped in her recovery, the staff members give her hope. Seeing how far others have come also encourages her to keep pushing on. She believes that God believes that she can handle it. She is grateful for her trials and tribulations, as well as the times when she was doing and feeling well, and not wanting to be high. She believes that the higher powers can turn something ugly into something really beautiful because the answers are really within all of us.

I know this might sound incredibly silly, but a major point of disruption for me was realizing my own terribly inaccurate ideas about these people.  I always thought AA would be a room with just a group seated in a group circle with some people who wanted to be there, and other who were required to be there so they were probably pretty reluctant to be there. I was basically expecting just an overall sense of down-ness and self-pity. But how it turned out was quite different from what I expected. Yes, it be sombre but certainly, I was quite taken by how positive and kind everyone made the place feel. I was really surprised by how many AA individuals expressed gratitude. Many of them also believe in some kind of a higher power in their lives, and majority of these people referred this as God to them. They thanked Him for helping them make it this far. And no, hardly anyone engaged in self-pity, but simply said they wanted and needed to do better.

This experience has taught me that I really don’t know what goes on behind the closed doors of the personal/domestic life of my students and their families. What if a child cannot study or complete their homework at home because the environment is not a conducive space? What if they had a drunk parent who drank irresponsibly and was potentially harmful all the time? This can easily result in a lack of self-confidence and self-esteem in my student. 

I also really like the story of the AA sticker on the person’s car. It made me think about what can I do, say, or display on the first day of class to communicate to my students that I am a safe person to talk to.  Furthermore I want to create an welcoming and charitable environment where my students feel like they fit in and belong, so that they don't have to feel like they need to turn to other vices like those of the adults. 

Sunday, October 25, 2015

Personal Cultural Artifacts


The visionary founding father of Singapore.



A short video of what Lee Kwan Yew has made Singapore today.



The famous dragon dance during one of our traditional festivities.



 Racial harmony is highly valued in Singapore and it is deeply ingrained in citizens at a young age.



Middle class housing in Singapore owing to the lack of land.
Land size: approx. 15 x 22 miles. Population: 5 million.



A short video about a favorite childhood game amongst Singaporeans called "Pepsi Cola". It is usually played in the void decks of middle class apartment housing mentioned just above this.



A lot of recreational activities take place at these public basketball courts. 



Singapore is nicknamed a 'Fine City' owing to its many strict laws, wherein violations result in fines.



The attire for school in Kindergarten, Primary and Secondary Schools is uniforms.



A picture of my secondary school.



Another picture of my secondary school.



A movie made by a famous Singaporean director about the intense education system in Singapore.



A picture of the extensive subway infrastructure in Singapore called the "Mass Rapid Transit". Majority of Singaporeans use the public transport system to get around. 


A view of the night city skyline of Singapore.


The LDS Singapore Stake center modeled after the Nauvoo Temple.



The wet markets in Singapore are where most people get their fresh food supplies. They are more common that supermarkets.



An example of a food court in Singapore.



Famous foods in Singapore. Singapore is a popular tourist destination for its amazing food.



The unique tropical fruits of Southeast Asia.

I've learned that my culture is very inclusive in terms of racial diversity. However, it can be less inclusive in terms of socio-economic status. Additionally, the education system can be pretty brutal, and students are separated into different learning proficiency streams as young as ten years old. I want to create a classroom that encourages and enables better classroom learners to help their fellow peers. I recognize that everyone is gifted in their own ways and have different talents to offer. I grew up in a system that placed a daunting emphasis on formal education and how well you performed in it. Young people end up seeing each other in a different light determined by the proficiency streams they are placed in, however unintentional this judgement. I want my students to discover that there is so much more to learning and being a contributive person to society that is absolutely not solely determined by how well you perform in the classroom of formal education.

Monday, October 5, 2015

Being the "Other"

So I started out with a different introduction 'paragraph' which I have moved to the end of this post. Let's just say, this assignment turned out a little trickier than I thought because I realized that my entire experience at BYU really has been - being the "Other".

But as I thought more about it, well at the end of the day, the one thing that I do have in common with my peers is the very thing that brought us all, well, most of us here - being Mormon. So I decided, for the first time in my life, to attend another church to see what it was like.

I picked the First Unitarian Church of Salt Lake City. I was surprised at how intimidated I felt when I walked in, not because people were mean or unkind at all, but because I was worried about what they would think of me if they knew I was still Mormon. Prior to attending that Sunday, I had heard that this Church was very inclusive and that a lot of people who had left the Mormon church would attend here.

As I proceeded to look for a place to sit, it didn't help that, being racially different, I already stood out pretty fast (as I often do here) as much as I tried to place myself as quietly and inconspicuously along the side of the room. I could tell people were looking at me, although most of it would quickly turn to smiles.


What troubled you about the experience?

The service was definitely different in that it was more varied, a little less formal (though still reverent I'd say), and different kinds of people went up and expressed themselves to the congregation and God in different ways. I will say, I had a lot of apprehension the entire time, yet at the end of it, I remembered that just because something is different doesn't mean it's wrong. I knew I was uncomfortable because I have always experienced church in a very distinct and separate way. And the manner of our Church was so ingrained in me, that's why they say, being Mormon will always be in my DNA. Yet the experience was so troubling for me is that I've been so wired to believe that we are the ONE TRUE CHURCH. So even though I was welcomed at this other church, I constantly felt guilty for thinking that it didn't feel completely right to be there because they don't have the full gospel - even if they were good people. Whether people noticed that I seemed uncomfortable or not, it didn't matter because afterwards, people came up to me and they were really friendly and I really appreciated it. People who did not look like what my Mormon church often taught me about what 'good' people looked like, were so happy and sincere in their interactions.

This experience made me think back to an interesting thought I had a while ago. My friend Nicol came to BYU as a non-member student to attend the accounting program here. She was a Christian of a different denomination at the time and was not required to attend our church services on Sunday. However, she could not find her church here. Yet because she simply felt like she needed and wanted to be in a church on Sunday to worship God, she chose to attend a student ward anyway as much as she had her own reservations about Mormonism. This made me realize that in contrast, for Mormons, if we can't find our church in a place we are in, we just don't go.

So I might have gotten side-tracked a little bit. Well, I definitely felt out of place there but I coped by making an effort to engage in conversation with people - as I have always tried to do. I also try to remind myself that a lot of the situations where I am the "Other" is very circumstantial - like if you were a White American kid attending school in Asia. (But there are also a lot of situations where it's not circumstantial and the response is a result of people's upbringing and life experience, and they just don't know how to react with and to you).


What insights can you take into your future work as a teacher?

Through this and many other experiences of being the "Other", has really allowed me to gain empathy for others. And it has only made me want to make my future classroom a safe, inviting, normalized, and inclusive space for my students to express themselves regardless of how different they are from each other. I want my students to know that being different is what brings us together - being different is beautiful because it opens your mind and gives you new perspectives in life.


(Also, I do not have pictures because I was too nervous/anxious/scared to take any while I was there.)






Here's the former little intro of how I've lived as the "Other" in both being at BYU and even before I came to BYU really.

1. Being a non-white
2. Being a non-American/international student/foreigner
3. Being biologically assigned female at birth
4. Identifying as an agender individual
5. Being attracted to others of my same biological sex (however few of them)
6. Not looking and carrying myself like the most other females at BYU/in the church
7. Being the only Asian female who play intramurals basketball at BYU
8. Being an Asian female in the film program
9. Just having to go to the bathroom being an anxiety-ridden experience because you don't 'look' like you belong in there and other women do a double-take when you go in.
10. Wearing pants to church on Sunday because that's why I feel most comfortable in even though people stare (and think you're trying to make a statement).

I chose to include this in the end because it made me also think of the ways I am not the other:

1. I have friends
2. My roommates know I'm an LGBT individual and they are still nice to me
3. I have siblings and we love each other
4. I am in college
5. I am not homeless
6. I do not have to beg on the streets for a living
7. My apartment is warm and the roof is not leaking
8. I have clean clothes to wear to school everyday (if I do my laundry)
9. My professors like me

10. I am grateful to have a natural friendly disposition that allows people to feel like they can come talk to me

Monday, September 21, 2015

Cultural Snapshot



Trailer: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BB5ag2hswmo





An underprivileged group that I feel has been misrepresented in our society is the Deaf population and community.

The cultural snapshots I have collected illustrate that there is SO much that is still misunderstood about this community, how inaccurate the representations are of Deaf people in main stream culture and in the media, and how Deaf people are still constantly having to find ways to educate the public.

What message(s) (consistent or conflicting) are being sent about this cultural group through these artifacts? Illustrate how the artifacts convey the message(s).

The artifacts represent a lot of misconceptions such as cochlear implants being the way to 'fixing' Deaf people, why/how people are Deaf, how they feel, and what they are capable of. These various artifacts show that people still think that Deaf people are deaf because/only because of loud noises, that they miss being able to hear or rather, they wish they were able to hear, and finally, people think they aren't as intelligent or competent as others owing to their inability to hear.

The film artifact featured is particularly terrible. Though made only fairly recently in a time where you'd think people were already be more informed and less ignorant, the trailer itself perpetuates a lot of the stereotypes that Deaf people are 'less than' and act differently even though the ONLY thing different about them is that they can't hear.

How might this message(s) impact how a child from this cultural group is viewed and treated in the classroom? 

So some of the messages collected from these artifacts are more negative, and some more positive than others. Regarding the negative messages, a lot of students might wonder why a fellow deaf or hard-of-hearing student does not have/did not want to get a cochlear implant. They may also think that the student is not smart as them because he/she may have speech difficulties or sound different. Regarding the positive messages, a child may hopefully be treated as an equal in the classroom.

Why is it important for teachers to examine how cultural groups are represented in the media, curriculum and policy?

I feel it is important for teachers to examine how these cultural groups are represented in the media, curriculum, and policy because it enables them to be aware of how their students of various demographics are perceived by their peers in the classroom. In doing so, they can then take steps to ensure that their classroom is one that is inclusive, and that their students become educated and informed in the kind and respectful ways they ought to treat their peers.

Sunday, September 20, 2015

Imagined Classroom

1. Five images (you can take them or they can come from the Internet [provide proper credit]). These images should reflect, in some way, what you imagine your classroom will look like once you are a teacher. Please annotate your images by providing a description of the image and how it relates to your future classroom.

Picture 1: Classroom has many windows. Each student has a computer so they can easily see and refer to what the teaching is saying. The desk is also big enough for them to write notes for any thoughts and ideas they might have during instruction.




Picture 2:  There is sufficient space in between the grouped tables and chairs for the teacher to walk around and work with the students freely. The grouped spaces allow students to also collaborate with ease.



Picture 3: The teacher can easily see everyone. The small teacher to student ratio allows me to know each of my students more personally and allows me to reach out to them.




Picture 4: I love the image of the globe on the floor. The open space and chalk boards creates a welcoming place for young energetic students to walk about freely to discuss ideas. This space would be used as a discussion haven. Many young students think with more clarity when they are able to move about.




Picture 5: I would love to have an outdoor section of my classroom where students can also just go outside on good-weathered days to continue learning. Nature is also another ‘culture’ which students can learn more about. When student can become more aware of nature and see what is at stake, it helps them become more aware of what they are doing day to day that impacts nature. The fresh air from the outdoors can also help students to focus better because very often young people just want to be outside moving around and not just stuck indoors for long periods of time.





2. Imagine the surrounding in your classroom. What does the room look like? What resources are available for students? How are the resources used during the lesson?

The room has many windows. There are computers and learning tablets. They are used for looking up additional information that will enhance the lesson, or empowering students to share things they have already come across that are relevant to what is being taught. The room has walls with special whiteboard texture/paint that students can write on. There is something marvelous and magical about being able to draw and write on walls.


3. Describe the students in your classroom. What are their backgrounds? What are their interests? What are they doing during the lesson?

The students in my class are happy and enthusiastic. They come from a diverse combination of race, language, religion, economic status, family backgrounds and cultural traditions. They are interested in a unique combination of things arts, science, language, technology, sports, and play. They are learning how to express their thoughts, ideas, and dreams during my lesson, while doing so in a kind and respectable manner towards their peers.


4. Describe your classroom policies. What are you classroom rules? What is your discipline plan? What are your homework policies?

Students will be patient, kind, and respectful to each other.
Students will participate and contribute to class discussions.
Students will gather and return materials to the right places, and clean up after themselves.
Students will be focused when in the classroom, speak only when appropriate, and show sincere effort in completing their own work.
Students will be punctual to class.

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If a student is late more than three times, he/she will stay after school for 15 minutes to help the teacher clean and organize the classroom. Ten minutes will be added to each additional tardiness.

Verbal warnings will first be given for excessive talking or disrupting the class. After three times, a student’s seat will be changed, followed by a timeout in the classroom, and then in an alternate classroom.

If bullying is detected, a verbal warning will be given. If it happens again, a visit to the Principle’s office and possible contact with the student’s parents will result.

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Homework can be turned in late but at a 50% deduction penalty for everything up till a week before the last day of class. Homework can also be redone for a single letter upgrade.


5. Describe a typical lesson you will teach in your classroom. What will you teach? What is the topic? Why did you choose this topic? How will you teach it? What is the main thing you want students to learn during this lesson?

Ideally I will teach film. I will teach my students how to make documentaries. The topic is telling stories about social issues or stories that are important/personal to them. I chose this topic because stories about misunderstood, marginalized, and minority groups need to be told. I want students to give voice to the voiceless and this can either be themselves or someone they know, or even some part of life they didn’t even know they could talk about. I will teach it using examples of past documentary films, then getting students to hash out their ideas, draw storyboards, learn how to use a camera, and finally learn how to edit their footage. I want students to learn that everybody has a story, and to also learn that if you’re going to make something, you might as well make something good because that is why we are given the tools and talents that we have.


6. Imagine your work as a teacher during this lesson. What are you doing during the lesson?

I am constantly engaged with my students. I ensure that I am speaking loudly, and clearly enough, and always in a respectful manner. I also ensure that I make myself as readily as possible during the time that students are working on their films.


7. Imagine your students again, what are they doing during the lesson?

My students are listening. They may be writing, or doodling but they are tuned in and listening. They are coming to me with questions. They are working on their stories. They are learning. They are smiling. They are interested.


8. Imagine how you will assess your students' learning and achievement. How will you know they have learned?

I think one of the best ways is to have students talk about the work they have done - that way you can gain a pretty good idea about how invested they were in it. I would like them to talk about what they loved, what worked for them, and what they did not like about the assignment. I would also like them to share with the class one thing they were surprised to learn.